Being What I Always Wanted To Be.....

Ever wondered why you never get that ecstatic feeling even after putting your last drop of sweat to some work and completing it just on time? Its because you work amongst this poor, stinking, full-of-politics, ungrateful and unappreciative bunch of assholes who will take your life with that crooked smile and choking amount of work and then forget about it and tell you your "points of improvements" the next day!! Life is a bitch they say! True it seems. 'Cos once you enter IT industry...thats your life and that "life" is all about who is governing it and standing on your head! I don't understand a simple logic. Why can't someone be honest. Simple. One word. One powerful and respectful word. HONEST. Give the person exactly the amount back that he gave to your work. Be appreciative when he does something commendable. Be a guide when he is taking the wrong direction or lagging behind. Above all...be HONEST with what you want from him. Is it that di...

I know there is too much happening around. Everyday you open the newspaper, there are atleast 4-5 rape cases reports, coward Pakistanis creating a mess on LOC, Owaisi the hate-monger and the list goes on. Things shake you up when you read about them..don't they? But as soon as those 20 pages get over, your life again gets centred around yourself. Your office, your boss, your family, your friends and all that shit that is sucking your routine! Watching an Arnab Goswami show and then screaming "Hell Yeah!" ..is that what this nation is all capable of? We are blaming the government and the government is blaming us back. This is us...this is our NATION! No doubt that the Delhi Rape Case brought the majority of the citizens (youngsters) come up united but things don't end here. It is not even the toe of the problem. And trust me when you jot down the shit happening in your life and the shit happening all around you...you will find yourself woken up from a beautiful ...

I have been trying to express myself on this animosity since Sunday night itself but could not find words for it. Words still are falling short but I have to say something just to be a part of it in action. A talented, young, strong girl who might have been amongst the star youths of India someday was brutally gang-raped in a moving bus in Delhi. Doctors say that they have never seen such brutality in sexual assault ever before. And the country is grieving. Law is struggling. The accused are still living...breathing. How do you expect someone to response on this? On top of it, when I read about the girl's will power to fight back all the pain and trauma that she is going through and appealing to live...makes me mum.  This is one of the cases which we have come to know. And thats maybe because the accused are not from a good financial background to get the stories hidden inside cover. So many women empowerment talks going all around the country....so many discussions an...

Sometimes you can't always have what you were supposed to have. It might be hard to accept but it happens with every other person that passes you by. There are so many things that one thinks of going back and changing in the past though there is nothing that can be done about it. Unlucky are those who cannot do anything in present as well to compensate the damage. Then is when things get devastated for them. Life is a fragile thing. And it is too less to tag it just with "Handle with care". It is more fragile than even a snowflake. And the irony is that... a very handful of people understand that. You see things slipping by your hand. You see life moving on. You see people growing up. Even relationships are not a permanent thing. They start, they grow and then they become so big that their roots have to be cropped in order to keep them alive! Such is life...such is its fragility...!

If you think of emotions, they are crazy. Crazier than even life! You can't explain a goddamn thing that you are feeling and yet you fight for it. Fight till the extent somebody lets you know it was not supposed to be fought for....coz it was not your possession. Possession, possessiveness and obsession...I think they all are over rated and wrongly related. They belong to completely different tangents and yet they are supposed to be inclined on the same line of a graph. People call it a graph of progression. But I do not agree. Coz it is not so. Those who have experienced it surely know that you can never explain the mismatch of what you feel and what you believe in. And it is too strange to observe that they rarely match (though they are supposed to).  Life does not come with instructions and hence your manual of treating life need to be updated every single day. Believe me...its damn tiring! And its equally annoying! But do you have a way out? Being inside LIFE a...

Some days.. everything pisses you off. Every person beats the shit out of you. All you do is yelling and killing your own self from inside but the doors are shut even tighter with a bigger lock this time. It is never about being loved. It is not even about loving someone. It is about being present. Being there. Being felt. Being chosen. Clocks keep ticking. Earth keeps spinning. Time flies by. All you are always left with.. Is a little more tears.. A little more cries.. Skies will keep on getting higher.. Mountains will keep on shining brighter.. Sun will warm you but never warm enough.. And thats when it goes rough.. Everything...so damn rough..! Just a little scribbling... :-/ 

There are probably 90% females out there who have suffered from eve-teasing atleast once in their lifetime. Some of them ignore the humiliation thinking it is not as severe as sexual exploitation, violence, rape or murder. But I believe there is no less humiliation in eve-teasing. There is also another thinking that the dressing sense of a lady invites men to hit on her or humiliate her publicly. But I ask...why??? If it is a country of equal genders, then shouldn't it be vice-versa too then? Shall girls also start commenting or harrasing men wearing shorts, vests or any other so-called "inviting" attire? It sounds disgusting and funny ..right?  So it does  when guys do it to girls. It is as ridiculous, disgusting and funny.  Another reason why this problem prevails is that women rely on men to protect them in such situations. They might retaliate to some extent but ultimately they somehow feel that they are the weaker sex. This strengthens the eve-teasing criminal...