Being What I Always Wanted To Be.....

Why do I have to mourn, why oh why? Those who had to go are gone. Those who had to do their deeds have done. They don't have a remorse nor a guilt. Then.. Why do I have to mourn, why oh why? Its worthless when you have it, unworthy if you don't Your honesty is paid by a handful of lies And you can't even complain too, Then.. Why do I have to mourn, why oh why? Its a small world they say Smaller than a room sometimes You see me everyday and so do I But those are not your glances, those are not your eyes Then.. Why do I have to mourn, why oh why?

There was a time when I told him only negative things about me. What wrongs I did to people, how pessimistic I had been and what people thought of me. He still chose me. I told him its not a good choice. There are still dark things in me left unexplored and I don't know when might they get discovered. He smiled and still chose me. Today, when I tell him that this is what my thinking is, what I think of doing to this world and how mean I am, he tells me some positive things which I don't even think belong to me. He convinces me that those things are inside me and all I need is to accept them. I call him an illusionist and he still chooses me. I don't know what keeps him there. What tells him that I am worth staying for. I don't know why we were destined to meet, to live together, to spend the rest of our lives together. I just know that wherever I go, whatever I choose, he follows, finds me and still chooses me .... 

Scene : Morning 8:30 am. Pati sitting on couch looking at his office laptop. I came to the living room and see that its actually looking like a mad house. So I decide to clean it up a little bit. I start folding things/putting them at proper place. I find my husband's jacket somewhere beneath that heap of blankets. Rest everything cleaned, I give that to him saying "Please keep it in your cupboard when you get up." He says "Sure". 1 hour later: I have taken bath. Husband has taken bath. I am preparing tea for breakfast. Pati putting lunch in lunchbox. I come out to serve tea on the centre table and I find that jacket exactly at the same place I left it. I fold the jacket and put it in pati's cupboard. Then I go to him and say as nicely as I could "I asked you to keep that jacket in your cupboard. It was a 30 sec job. When you got up to go for bath, you could have kept it back". What happens next? a) Pati says "Oh damn. Shit I forg...