Being What I Always Wanted To Be.....

We often ignore the small assets of life. True but we ignore the truth too. A call from a long-lost friend... A long mail after a long time... A friend teasing you over someone... A totally unexpected surprise from someone who cares for you just too much... ..... There are just so many of them! But we all forget all this and remember the big things A promotion missed to get... A fight with the parents... A t-shirt for which there was not enough money in pockets... And what not??? Thats lame! But thats how we react. Thats how I react most of the times. But life is beautiful. And its beautiful in its own way. Don't search the beauty in the obvious things. Because thats obvious that you are not gonna find it there. A step you take towards life, another step life takes towards you. But what people generally want is to just hang there and wait for life to move on. Thats not gonna happen. And that should not happen as well. You have to smile to get a smile back. Y...

People have their own techniques of handling frustrations. I have three- 1. Be alone and cry for a while ( I call it tears for rage) 2. Mess everything up ( which doesn't actually help much) 3. Take that frustration out on somebody else. Now the third method is the most unfair one, but it satisfies me to the core. It vents out everything. Everything which was clotted and everything which could have clotted. But sometimes, I don't get a victim to face it. And I feel so helpless...so handicapped! I remember a scene in this movie I saw lately Guzaarish . There is a scene where Hrithik (being a total handicap) was lying on bed and was highly frustrated over something. There was a vase kept on a table in front of his bed and he wanted to smash it down to the floor. Just to vent out..! He asks Aishwarya to do that for him. But she refuses. Gosh...that helplessness!!!! I could feel the same at so many moments of my life! I just want to smash that vase so hard....but I am so c...

I used to think once that compromise is a complicated word. Dislikes sometimes re-word as compromise. Attitude hides behind compromise. And above all... Adjustment is a big-time synonym of compromise. But no! When you think alone...when you define in a multi-dimensional parameter...compromise is much bigger than all these. Its not just an adjustment or a discomfort or a mere deviation. Its killing your instincts and living someone else's life. A life where you say what the other person wants to hear. A routine where you convince yourself to do what you are doing. Its also assumed that when someone else is doing it for you...its adjustment or a minor change for his/her own good. But when its you...it becomes a sacrifice! Does it? I believe if you are not habitual of lying to yourself...if you know that person who you see daily in the mirror...you would know. You would know whats happening. No matter what people say or claim. You know it inside. Its just that everytime it...