DAY 228 (Disappointments..!)

Disappointment is cancerous. It eats you from your core. You know it when it is about to happen. Well you don't exactly know it...you have an intuition that it is about to happen. You console yourself by excusing the accuse out. You disentangle yourself from all the tangles by working it out in your mind. You keep your fingers crossed and just pray for a miracle to happen so that all this hardwork somehow goes in vain. Irony ! But it is such, that you want this effort of yours to actually fail. Because you know the outcomes.

Well...this praying and finger-crossing doesn't work and it happens that what you thought will happen. Suddenly you also realise that the effort you had already put in was of no use. It was all crap. The accuse was not worth it. He was made to disappoint you and you probably deserve to be disappointed for being such a hopeless moron. You were hopeless because you let this happen. You were hopeless because you saw your intuition getting birth and taking life and then killing you. And all you did to work it out was praying. Well..thats height of foolishness!!

Then you think and try to save yourself from future disasters and heart-breaks. This time you are ready. You are all set to face it. No expectations...no disappointments is your formula. Your confidence is at another pinnacle. And then...still and once again...you get stumped. Its not just expectations which can disappoint you. It is so many times the never-expected, never-imagined and never-dealt-with situations that can get that tumour back in your brain.

So..the conclusion finally is that there is no cure. There is no prevention. And there is no precaution. It is meant to happen if you love someone, if you care about someone or even for that matter if you just know someone too. Such is life and thats why it kills itself eventually. 

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